The Nightmarish Dream

I slept late yesterday at past 3am. I was thinking that I’ll have a dreamless sleep since I was so tired from a very long Sunday and the fact that I have been feeling really sick the past few days (til today) will somehow make me sleep like a log.

I woke up very early at around 10 minutes to 5am since I saw my mobile phone shows the time and I would really wanted to wake up because of the dream I was having… It was a really good dream if I will try to look at it from “Maybe it can still come true” part of my mind. However, since I am now stuck with the harsh reality the dream is really a huge pain in the @$$. The dream was so clear, even his face was clear… I really hated when I dream like that… If I can only make those sort of dreams to never visit me when I sleep. I will…

And so I go back to sleep… Hoping Against hope that I would have a good morning sleep and rest…

I know I was dreaming again, I found myself in a place where I would never in my life want to be staying… The place looks normal but dull and I can feel a sense of danger. Then I saw this other person… He made me feel safe and I smile so many times in my dream… Then one part of my mind told me to wake up… “Because that dream will never be made into reality…”

What a cruel thing to start my week…

I am definitely considering both that dream into My “Nightmarish” category…

I would never want to sleep if I would dream that sort again… *sigh*

The Dark Side

I have two blogs and I made the other one some couple of years ago. On my first blog site, I wrote about almost anything however, I did deleted some posts that I no longer want to read or remember.

This post is called: “The Dark Side” because I have decided to post entries on this blog in the “not so-ordinary” manner. Everyone has their dark side right? Well, I don’t literally mean like being bad or mad… I just wanted a place where I can really be myself whenever I feel anger raging inside me…

I would have to say that the past few days had been very cruel with me and my family… and all the anger inside me just wanted to burst out and be free. I was thinking of posting something on my other blog, but I don’t think negative thoughts will suit that blog, so I decided to make this blog as my own personal “Rant” blog.

Sometimes, I just really wanted to kick the behinds of the people who keep on hurting me and the people I love the most… I wanted them to feel the pain they bring us.

But then, the real Me would just want to be quiet and just let it go…

Different…

Our Lives maybe turning Upside Down

It may seem that all the Troubles are converging in on Us…

Rainy Days may stay for a long while

Through All These

I Will Stand Still

I Will Stand Tall

I Will Be Strong

My Prayers… and My Faith…  Are My Weapon

My Mom and My Brother, Are My Home and Serenity

I Will Fight All These

I Will Make it Through, together with My Loved Ones

I Can Fly High and Soar in the Sky

I Can Swim the Deepest of Seas and

Climb the Highest of Mountains

These are Just Trials

God Won’t Let Us Fall and

I Would Never Let Him and My Family Down

This is Me…

Different…