The Dark Side

I have two blogs and I made the other one some couple of years ago. On my first blog site, I wrote about almost anything however, I did deleted some posts that I no longer want to read or remember.

This post is called: “The Dark Side” because I have decided to post entries on this blog in the “not so-ordinary” manner. Everyone has their dark side right? Well, I don’t literally mean like being bad or mad… I just wanted a place where I can really be myself whenever I feel anger raging inside me…

I would have to say that the past few days had been very cruel with me and my family… and all the anger inside me just wanted to burst out and be free. I was thinking of posting something on my other blog, but I don’t think negative thoughts will suit that blog, so I decided to make this blog as my own personal “Rant” blog.

Sometimes, I just really wanted to kick the behinds of the people who keep on hurting me and the people I love the most… I wanted them to feel the pain they bring us.

But then, the real Me would just want to be quiet and just let it go…

Different…

Our Lives maybe turning Upside Down

It may seem that all the Troubles are converging in on Us…

Rainy Days may stay for a long while

Through All These

I Will Stand Still

I Will Stand Tall

I Will Be Strong

My Prayers… and My Faith…  Are My Weapon

My Mom and My Brother, Are My Home and Serenity

I Will Fight All These

I Will Make it Through, together with My Loved Ones

I Can Fly High and Soar in the Sky

I Can Swim the Deepest of Seas and

Climb the Highest of Mountains

These are Just Trials

God Won’t Let Us Fall and

I Would Never Let Him and My Family Down

This is Me…

Different…

I Need to be Back on the Line

It’s 05:16am in my machine clock and I should have been working all night and early morning long… but I was so sleepy, I wasn’t able to do so.

I do have a job and it’s a home based job, where I am a Writer.

I have been a freelance provider in oDesk for almost a year now and I must keep up with all my work, projects and assignments.

I’m just really not feeling well this past few days and whenever I feel sick, it’s very difficult for me to write.

I am now sipping an ice cold latte and I am here in my cousin’s attic, well its not really like a dirty attic, it’s actually a nice comfy room that looks like an attic. I have this really small corner all for myself and it feels good to be in this corner.

I will be working all day today and I should keep up my pace.

I’ve actually been out of myself lately… Some things from my past keeps on flashing back even in my dreams and it is not a good thing for me. Anything that reminds me of My Past is not good for me or my health and it worries me…

I would have to say that this affects me, everyday…

I have to get back on track and I must not keep my guards down… I can’t and I won’t. I must keep my head up high even though most of the times I feel like crying and just giving up.

I hate to be in this kind of situation and I cannot go back to my sulky self. I must be strong and steady. I should…

Never Glance Back.